I see you there
Looking at me
Pleading with me
As a four-legged creature would beg for a bone.
You want to venture out
Out there where the chill stings
Out there where pellets of hail rule as kings
Where the snow melts and conspires with ice
And sidewalks disappear in snow,
Growing weary of the fight.

Don’t you feel it?
The heater is calling
So enticing
If I wrap you in a sea of blankets
Will you desist?
Doesn’t the angel’s wing empower
The devil’s fist?

Your white exterior
Is screaming;
Screaming for existence

Cruel
Cruel is your soul
Your wanting,
Your needing,
Nothing else matters.

Oh, stop it, I see you.
I hear you
It is all I hear
I AM TURNING UP THE VOLUME

Who am I kidding?
Your voice within
Blocks the passage in which sounds travel
Technology cannot match that of your consistent babble.

Your tongue sticks out as if laughing
So I amuse you?
Why do you think because you have laces
You know everything?

Are you aware of the rain outside?
The enemy awaits
Every second expanding its reign over the track
Sinking in and destroying
Your soul, your structure, your support
Making you weak
From the inside.

Are you aware?
Are you aware?
No.
Your greed;
Too strong

I will not give in.
I refuse to give in.
Yet the “no” sounds of sin.

You enjoy this
Twisting my thoughts
Am I an object?
A toy?
A game?
Well I can just say no
Yet heart beats of shame

Leave me be!
You think you know me?
Wailing of laughter
Like from Alice in Wonderland, the obnoxious giggling Hatter?

Why do you think I will just say yes?
Why do you think my guilt will break down and confess?
Why must you think your words so strong?
And why have I been talking to myself so long?

The TV is no longer amusing me.
My eyes cannot concentrate on
The moving pictures.
The colors are blending into gray.
Music no longer beats tunes of
Freedom

I am not free unless,
I run…..